exhaustion at its fullest....

So, here i am again....procrastinating doing my homework...at 10:30 at night...oops.
Anyways, i got to thinking tonight, which can be dangerous. I never really realized just how great of a life i have. I realize that i have it so much better than starving kids in africa, or orphaned kids in china, but i have it significantly better than people here in my own town even. As i was waiting for 9:00 to come around at work tonight, a woman who often comes in drunk, came to my register. I sat there, counting out $1.20 in beer cans, and i realized that something crazy must have happened to this woman, for her to depend on alcohol so much to get herself through her day. She began to tell me about her life, and though i could understand little of it through the slurring and the cussing, i saw a sadness in her eyes that i had never cared to see before. This woman shared with me so much stuff about her life, and i so badly wanted to pray for her right then and there....but she probably wouldnt have liked it, and i would have gotten fired. Id rather not die on that hill. But anyways...i realized that i have nothing to complain about. Lately, ive struggled with feeling apathetic to just about everything in my life. Im never content with where im at, and just dont really care about anything. But as i listened to this woman speak, God showed me that i have so much compared to this woman. She is middle aged, and quite an alcoholic...and that's how her life is going to be. I however, am young, i can still make life changing decisions...if i take the chance to really care about whats going to happen with me in the future.

--yeah.

Famine 08.

so, here i am again. Thirteen hours into my famine...and already feeling some minor hunger pains. I realized, though, that the reason this is so difficult for me isnt because im addicted to food...but more because it is so habitual for our culture to just eat. Whether it be out of boredom, sadness, or real hunger...we just eat. It was awkward for me to wake up this morning and not go get my usual bagel and coffee. But as i sat and thought about it, i wasnt really hungry, i was just used to waking up and getting breakfast. I know it is often said that our culture is ungrateful for the things we have, but doing this really helps me understand it. We have so much in our lives, and not just food-wise. We have so much to be grateful for...this is why i do the famine. Not only is it awesome to help out a culture full of people that i may never meet, but i learn so much about myself. Granted, towards the end i get to be somewhat delirious, but dont we all? Needless to say, im really excited to see what the rest of this day, and tomorrow has to offer. I am so ready for God to open me up, and show me things.

Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some people have entertained angels without knowing it.
Hebrews 13:2

---Good luck today, Elevators. We made an awesome impact last year, lets make an even better one this
year! i know we can do it!

My Birthday!

so, today i turned 17. it wasn't really all that thrilling....but im 17 none the less. I did get breakfast in bed and a nice dinner made for me. And Liz brought me an awesome gift...but i just dont see why people make such a big deal out of birthdays. Its kinda been boggling my mind all day....why do i get to make all these choices just because 17 years ago i was born on this day? Dont get me wrong, i really dont mind being treated like a princess and getting presents and stuff...but i just dont get it. hmmm. think about it... in the meantime...goodnight*